Some days you just have to go buy yourself flowers...

Today I went and bought flowers and I went on an afternoon walk with my husband and just soaked in all the ways God has so blessed me.  Today, like more times than I can now count, my heart just crumbled into pieces for a precious momma as she released her baby into the arms of Jesus.  It made me really think about a lot.  Mostly that there is beauty in all things.  There is even beauty in the things that completely break our hearts.  This beauty may not be immediately visible and sometimes it just looks like dirt, but then all of a sudden our sweet grace filled God turns that dirt into what feeds a seed to become a beautiful flower.  When all we could see was nasty brown dirt God sees the circumstances necessary to grow a beautiful flower.  The seed that is rooted in that dirt needs love and care...it needs an environment to foster its growth...it needs the dirt to be tended to and watered...it needs for the gardener to recognize that what lies around it is more than just dirt...it's all the ingredients necessary to take that just plain nasty dirt and turn it into a beautiful flower.  

Truly over these last several years this is what the Lord has continued to show me...these circumstances both sad and beautifully precious all in the same breath are what have made this undeniable passion in my soul continue to grow for this sacred work I'm blessed to be a witness to.  In these sacred spaces...in the crumbled pieces of my heart God has planted and tended to a seed that I know will continue to grow and show the beauty of His grace and mercy.  Through His own sacrifice and death we see that as clearly as the sun that shines everyday, and just as the sun is necessary for a flower to grow...Jesus is necessary for our hearts to be whole.  During these days when my heart crumbles to the floor for a precious momma and tears flow on to my pillow I know that my God has a purpose.  I may never know that purpose while my eyes still see the sun, but I know when I see my Savior's face all the answers I ever needed will be right there shining back at me...until then the promise of beautiful flowers brought out of ugly dirt is all I need to know He is Soverign and His plan is divine.  

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”  John 16.33